Losing a Brother

One week ago today I received the phone call that has (and will) forever change my life....my brother Chris passed away unexpectedly. 

In technical terms he was my "step" brother, but in my family we don't use that term.  In our hearts and in our minds we are all TRUE siblings....we are FAMILY!

Chris was only 33 years old which makes me question "why him?".  He was a wonderful person with a special energy.  So much like his dad.

It's hard to understand why something so horrible could happen to our family.  There is so much pain in my parents eyes.  For the first couple days I think we were all in a daze.  Everything seemed weird...almost like living in a state of shock.  I don't think any of us really knew what to do.

Thursday evening at the family visitation it suddenly became very real.  Seeing my brother in that casket totally lifeless is an image I will never forget.  Although it was hard, I felt very connected to him.  I talked to him and could sense his presence. 

I have a strong sense that there is a greater plan, but again I want to know why him?  It is something we will never know and never understand.

My brother's death has definitely reminded me that 'life ends'.  Life is there one minute and can be gone the next.  We are reminded not to take anything/anyone for granted and life each day to its fullest.

Rest in Peace brother Chris!